Game and chance. » 0
I met a guy, who I’m going to refer to as Dave in this post, at a huge concert last Saturday. It was kind of shocking to my friend that I actually met someone new because it’s such a rare occurrence that I willingly allow myself to talk to ~strangers~. What’s more is that Dave, my friend (I’m going to call her Ice in this post) and I went to a bar after that. We were so under-dressed to go clubbing but Dave knew the bouncer so we cruised right in where we met Dave’s friend, Rain. So it’s the four of us, Dave, Rain, Ice and me hitting three bars through the night and they waited for us to catch our 7AM train. It was a really -fantastic- experience given it was my first night out to town. The guys bought all our drinks. Me and Ice wanted to pay but before we can take out our cards, the guys are already getting their change!
Anyway, Dave is…I don’t know. He really wants to meet me again for dinner and drinks but he’s 28, I’m only 20. (Rain is 30. Don’t ask. He actually looked like 25 though.) I don’t really mind the age-gap but I’m so concerned about what my friends think. I try not to think about that but I just can’t help. It’s like, I need their approval. Dave and I have been emailing each other since Saturday but I sent him an email last night about dinner/drinks. I just laid out my cards just because then, there’s no confusions if we do meet up again.
In the email, I said something along the lines of let’s be friends first so that we know each other a little bit more. Then when we’re more comfortable with each other, we’ll see how it goes. I mean, when I first met him at the concert, we talked. A lot. I still can’t believe how much “personal” stuff I told him. And he still wants to meet up with me. I thought the personal baggage will drive him running away. He’s OK, I think but I just don’t want to fuck this up. I don’t know. I’m just so confuse about him. I just have no idea what to do with him. One part of me is telling me to give him a chance, but another part of me is saying no, because he’s 28 and probably wants another floozy or something.
Well, I’ve put the ball in his court. I’ve got no expectations whatsoever after sending that email. If he’s up for slow and steady friendship, then I’ll have more respect for him. If he’s not, then I’m probably not going to meet him just because he’s not thinking about what I have to go through. But I hope he does.
