What a disappointment. » 0

What’s a friend if she’s not very supportive. Sometimes I question myself why I still am friends with her. Till today, I still cannot answer that question.

An example of her being very supportive </sarcasm> like a friend should…I use to do Taekwondo but I quit not to long after my first exam. (I’m an official yellow belt. Don’t mess with me, hee-yah!) There are a couple of reasons why I quit. The first and foremost was because the instructor kept pairing me up with this friend. So every time we spar, I’ve got to kick and punch her as much as I can. But I can’t. Never once in my short time in that class have I ever lifted a hand with the only reason to hit her. It’s wrong. I just can’t do it. So of course everyone thinks she’s better at fighting, I’m not disputing that. It was my decision, and till today, I won’t change a damn thing. This reason, I have never told anyone before, till today not even my family knows this was one of the main reasons why I quit.

The other reason, which everyone thinks is why I quit, is because I don’t like people touching my neck. I flinch really hard when anyone even puts a hand within 20cm of my neck. And as we progress more in Taekwondo, we’ve got to touch other people’s neck and vice versa. I knew I couldn’t handle that, so I left.

That was at least four to five years ago. Come back to today…I was walking with her and we past this guy giving out fliers about a self-defense course. I wanted to grab it but we were rushing for the train so we walked past him but as the guy tried giving it to her, she said back to him, “No need! I’m doing Taekwondo.” I looked at her and felt like…she’s being smug? Maybe it’s just me but I swear sometimes she likes to have a pissing contest. Anyway!

As we walked, I said quietly that I’d perhaps like to try my hands on self-defense. Streets aren’t safe now and it’s better to have some kind of self-defense, than nothing at all. And she instantly used her hands and reached for my neck. So of course, reflex made my flinch at least a meter away from her. Then she smirks at me and says something like, “Hah! You can’t let anyone touch your neck! And you’re thinking of self-defense?”

And that was all she said. End of topic. I was…well, I just kept quiet. Sometimes I just don’t know what to do. At least it’s off my chest now…

Change of topic. Yesterday I had dinner with a few of my friends. Doesn’t include the one mentioned above. Anyway! I ordered a dish with a description of “served on a sizzling hot plate”…something like that. It was a cold night, I thought “Oh yeah, hot plate! Keep me right warm and toasty!” What actually came though, was a fucking downright disappointment. I read the words “hot” + “plate” and think of an actual hot plate. What came though, was a white plate, which felt like it just came out of a dishwasher. It was such an utter disappointment. And a rip-off.

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