Teacup.

I’d think that 95% of my blog archives will compose of angst, angst and angst. Did I mention angst? I mean, I have angsty moments against life, work, friends, families and whatever else you can think of. I mean, I’d start another angsty rant again now but I’m so full of pent-up angst that I wouldn’t know where to start and finish. My angst-o-meter is bursting that I’m so scared to start!

So instead, I’m going to quickly skim over things that make up my life/day right now. Work is going okay, I don’t think I’m performing at 100% yet but I hope to be by the end of February. Also got told off by my supervisor that my slippers aren’t “professional”, looking to buy a more professional-looking slippers, checking out Gisele Bundchen’s Ipanema range currently. Can’t buy shoes right now because it technically is still Chinese New Years, and the Chinese have this superstition where we do not buy shoes during the 15 days of Chinese New Years.

Got free tickets to a concert in town tomorrow. Unplanned trip but I definitely am going with my friend. I had one more extra spare ticket but the friend which I am giving it to is seriously fucking me off. But I already told her the ticket is hers, so I can’t do anything about it. Oh well.

I’ve also set out a few goals for myself this year. Make at least one new friend this year, perform exceedingly well at my current job so that when I leave, they’d be crying a river and missing me a whole heap, and also to get at least a B average this year at university.

Well, sorry for the long break from the last post but I’m slowly deciding what I want to do with myself and all that mushy stuff. =3

Well, I’m feeling very very neutral right now. This comes just after I saw my Biology mark for the supposedly “practical” test. In actual fact, it was an open book test on paper. No practicals whatsoever. Didn’t even need my labcoat. OK, so. My first practical test, I got 21/50. So uh…yeah. Bombed it.

This second test, 24.5/50. I feel so cheated. The median score was only 25.5. I feel like they should adjust the difficulty of the test because the median is only 25.5. Half a mark above the pass-fail line. That is something.

But to put a word, right now, about how I feel about everything, I’d have to say that for every good thing I get, there’s a bad something that’s just happened or just about to. I’m happy at work, fat ass had to destroy it. I finally managed to…let’s just say, do something important for my health, I get my Biology mark.

I’ve got my two finals this coming Monday and Tuesday. After that, I’ve got someone’s birthday dinner to attend. Somewhere between there, I’ll have to wrap up some babyshower presents for a friend of mine who just gave birth last Tuesday.

One thing I don’t get is why every single other person, besides me, insist on addressing the baby girl as “bubs”. The poor girl has a name! Use it! It might have identity confusion. “Is my name Bubs or [insert real name]?” But maybe it’s just me. I never like to use any of these endearments because frankly, I don’t mean it. I’m not going to call my good friends ‘honey’ or ‘baby’ because they are not a honey or a baby and they are not the epitome of honey or a baby.

What makes me avoid these endearments even more is the fact that other peers around my age throws these ‘honey’, ‘baby’ and whatever else they can think off, like it’s nothing. It’s just like the word ‘the’. Use it multiple times that it’s just a word to use.

These teenagers’ conversation can go something like these:
Boy: Baby, what would you like to eat?
Girl: Oh baby, anything you’d like.
Boy: Come on, baby girl. Pick something for your little pumpkin. [At this point, I'm about to throw up.]
Girl: Ummmm, OK then honey. We’ll go with this dish because my little pumpkin can’t eat the others.
Boy: Thanks, baby!

Excuse me a moment while I throw up in the corner. >_> Seriously, people. There is a limit.

If I were to use an endearment, I would use honey-baby. I quite like it.

Back to the supposedly original topic that is my Biology marks, I don’t think I want to pick up my script. I’d rather not, in fact. And hell no, I don’t want to see the sample answers. Case-closed.

There is a few points I want to ramble about today.

First, my Dad is now approximately three hours in on a plane from Auckland bound for Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia. The trip takes about 9~10 hours, from what I remembered. He’ll be gone for two weeks. I asked him last night to wake me up just before he left [which was 5AM] so that I can give him a big fat hug. He did, so I gave him a big fat hug and fell right back to sleep. >_>

The weather sort of reflects my mood. Dreary. It’s raining and makes the day look like dusk. When it’s right in the middle of the afternoon. Oh well. I’ll see him in two weeks and I’m sure he’ll bring back lots of goodies.

Second, who knew my dentist is so popular? I had a pre-arranged appointment with him on June 18. Had work so called up today to reschedule. The blighther’s schedule was booked full until second week of July! So, next appointment is on July 20. Oh well.

Third, regarding the previous post. I finally understand the actin-myosin thing. And yup, there is such a word as ATPase in cell-biology. But it still took me 48 hours just to understand that small part. *head/desk*

That’s about it for now. Sometimes I just find this need to ramble on about little things on my mind. And they’re so trivial that they don’t warrant a whole entry dedicated to them. Hence, entries like these.

EDIT: Joomla is taking like…for-fucking-ever just to upload! At least 20 minutes now. On Broadband! (X_x) Please hurry up…